Subject: Bikini lines, concerts, dreary days and being single

Today the week got off to a not so great start. Evidently I turned off my alarm clock instead of hitting snooze...therefore waking up 45 minutes. Well, when faced with the dilemma of showering of finishing the work for the meeting I was attending, I did what many other scholar due on a daily basis...I had to bypass my hygiene care...skipping a shower to get the work completed. So, arrive to campus 20 minutes late for a meeting I am to lead and realize I have no umbrella with me. All day long I have had the job of running through UK's campus in the pouring rain...of course the drenched look goes well with my hobo appearance. As if my day wasn't dragging by bad enough...I got reminded well the lovely detriment of being single. In my attempt to book a cabin for Jamie/Alex's wedding cruise...I was pretty much told I couldn't without a roommate..I would have to pay double the deposit and if I did not have a roommate by a certain date risk losing that deposit or be charged for a full room. How much of a loser do I feel like..especially since this is not posing a problem for others besides me. Eventually she worked it out and called me back..I could put the deposit down and pretty much have a year to find somebody, but it isn't it lovely being single? Just place a big L on my forehead please. Since I have had not such a wonderful day, I have cancelled all my evening appointments and plan on curling up and taking a good ole nap while it rains outside. I cancelled my personal counseling appointment..Deciding I wasn't going to go back...then decided to reschedule it. I was being avoidant..this I know..but I know that I should practice good "self care". I honestly am just dreading going back and find it easier to not talk about everything on my mind all the time.

Bikini line...now I know this is something perhaps you guys don't want to read..so if so just skip on down. I am so frustrated with razor burn on the bikini line. Every stinking' time I shave the area I get a not so comfortable breakout of razor burn. You can't even put lotion on it because it does not good. Ladies..(or I guess guys too..) if you have any helpful suggestions, please reply in a comment.:-)

Now that I have been Miss Negative...I should share that I did have a wonderful time at the Chris Cagle/Rascall Flatts concert. We were so close (thanks to Ondi!:-). We were less than 15 feet from the stage..as close as you could be without actually being on the floor. It was a lot of fun. A bit of trauma on the way home and 40 minute detour as they closed down the main bridge between KY and Ohio. Can you believe they closed it down??? Anyways, perhaps a nap will alleviate some of my bad mood and complaining tendencies today.:-)

Interesting for those of you following the presidential election....was Bush wired??

Sad news: my aunt Jewell passed away last week. She had been battling cancer for 8 years, but had not told anyone in the extended family. I went up for the visitation on Friday. It was sort of strange because I only knew 3 or 4 people there. I was introducing myself to my first cousins at age 24. They all seem really nice. It is so unfortunate that my father's side of the family doesn't really do much together collectively. I was glad that I had the chance to go up for it though.

Last night I went to the Keith Urban concert. We had WONDERFUL seats (thanks to Stacey:-) and of course the performance was fantastic. He puts on a great show. This upcoming Saturday I am going with the girls to Chris Cagle/Rascal Flatts. Lots of country concerts for me.

How am I doing?? O.k. I guess. I am still feeling overwhelmed and emotionally and physically fatigue. I have to start taking better care of myself. I am disgusted with my weight and appearance. I can not stand it. I am trying to take some steps, but it is a hard thing for me. I have a friend who is willing to help me and serve as a "weigh in" accountability. My big thing is trying to incorporate exercising this week. I am miserable and have to do something about it. I have a multiple choice test this week for the first time in years...fun times. I know you would think multiple choice better than essay..but I would take an essay test any day over mc. Anyways, I am going to go study a bit before my client..then class.

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Last night, I was downtown running some errands and for a moment I almost felt like I was in Europe or somewhere. The temperature was that cool, but not bitter cold and I was walking in the middle of the city...it just was very reminiscent of European cities. It would be so wonderful to live in a walkable city. We are all so accustomed to jumping in my car and going here and going there (and my hectic schedule demands that to get everywhere that I need to be), however we lose something by enjoying more the cities in which we live. Granted American cities are not often designed to be walked, but it is a nice thought.

Aside from longing to be somewhere else at times, I am doing fine. School is school and work is work. I still have trouble saying no to extra work and find myself overwhelmed with all the commitments I have made. This weekend was nice though because I actually got to sleep in three days in a row. I was suppose to work on Sunday, but I wasn't feeling well, so I called in to work. I felt guilty..as I tend to when calling in, but it was a break that I needed both physically and mentally. I would be much more productive if I just had more energy. Really, I know that exercise would help with that, but when you are feeling as fatigue all the time as I have been, how am I suppose to motivate myself to exercise??

I am still "hanging out" with the guy. Men can be very confusing..that is all I will say.