What I have learned over the past two weeks:

1. I am slightly claustrophobic.

2. Evidently even if I am not datable (is that a word?) then I look like I would have friends that would be.

3. Once again confirmation that it is difficult (not saying impossible) for men and women to be friends..especially if there has been a previous romantic relationship.

4. There are obviously people who don't know me very well reading this blog.

5. I am prone to drop things in the toliet.

Claustrophobia: So I have been having increasing migraines over the past few months. These headaches are things that I have been experiencing since I was a small child..but they have started to increase so my PCP sent me to a neurologist who then sent me to get a MRI. I almost had a panic attack for real in the machine. They had to pull me out once. They put this Hannibal Lecter thing over your face..then huge cushions on either side of your head and then put you in the MRI machine..i.e. very small space. I had to use every coping skill I had to complete it...and then I refused the contrast. Anyone who knows me know that I have a huge fear of needles..so going into that tight space with a needle in my arm..no way. If there is a red flag on the completed tests I will go back and do it, but otherwise no thank you.

Speed dating: I ventured out with a coworker to do speed dating once again last week. It was actually more fun this time. Dont' know if I meet anyone where it is going anywhere..but it was interesting (and I think she met someone). The funny thing was that I got this email from a guy who was like I would like to stay in touch as a "friend" so we could meet people through each other. Perhaps I shouldn't taken offense, but it totally came across as not interested in you, but you look like you might have some cute single friends you can hook me up with. And I guess I may have took it that way because this is the guy who left with some girl after the event..trying to hook up right after the event. I was actually attracted to this short guy who didn't reciprocate..oh well.

Men and women: So the fundamental problem with male/female friendships-when the friend is a relationship - then you can easily get dropped or asked to disappear. Yeah...currently dealing with that..that's all I will say about that (and no it's not anyone who would be reading this blog that I am referencing).


The toilet: I dropped my phone in the toilet over a week ago as many of you know. I ended up needing a new phone..which wasn't the end of the world because I hated my Palm Treo from the moment I got it. Don't get a windows based phone! The darn thing was incapable of doing more than one thing at a time...I have never had so many dropped calls in my life. Anyways, I got the Blackberry Curve which has been fabulous so far. I totally understand the addiction with the blackberry already. Not a big deal - but I dropped my work keys in the toilet today as well. I mean really..can I be more clumsy?

People who don't know me: I received a comment that I didn't approve. In hindsight I should have but I didn't because it annoyed me to be quite honest. It was along the lines of get over it-there are people worse than you-live your life-..etc. Implying that I think my life is the worst thing ever. Ok. I so know there are people with worse things going on with them. In fact if you knew me you would realize most of my educational training and both of my jobs are all about other people-whether helping them in crisis or making them happy through photography. All my life I have spent a tremendous amount of time giving to other people. So I know probably much better than the commenter that my life could be so much worse. That being said - this blog serves as outlet. A place where I can be selfish and talk about myself and what is on my mind. I am real about my emotions and say things other people only think sometimes (which is what makes some people actually read it). Life is not all peachy keen for everyone and I am sorry if I "complain" too much. I do live my life - all I do is work two jobs and spend time with friends. Don't judge me if you don't really know me. Don't read my blog if you don't want to hear me talk about my life and what is like to be a single women in her late twenties trying to deal with that. I try to make my life events humorous..sorry if I come across as some hermit who does nothing and sits and complains about being single. (O.k. I am finished venting now - yes it is almost that time of the month and I am a bit grumpy from fatigue).