Scenes from the beach..I even include a self portrait which is becoming my new staple.

It is the last night here in North Carolina. I so don't want to go back to work! It has been a good trip. Only two days were rained out. I really love the beach..and each time I go to visit I am reminded of this. I need to live at the beach at some point in my life I am begging to think. I love the sound..I love the water..I love the sun. And of course it is a photography's paradise. What about San Diego? O.k. I saw a workshop is going to be there in one of my photography magazines so I am fixated on it for awhile.:-) I am such a kid when it comes to the ocean though. It takes forever to get me out in the water because I am a bit creeped out by the shells, etc on my feet. I fear that a creature of the sea of some sort is going to bite or grab me. However, once I get out in the water I am grand..and enjoy it. I love jumping into the waves. Although I prefer to not see the fish around me because again it creeps me out. And even though I have been to the beach numerous times, it wasn't until this trip that I came face to face with crabs..they are strange little creatures as well.

The only downfall of the trip was the human eating blood sucking flies. I am not exaggerating..ok a little bit..but they were vicious. I saw the blood on Sarah's arm from the an attack. I would have to lather in sunscreen then cover in bug spray..yucky I know..but it wasn't like they were just flying around..they would bite and it hurt. The amount of flies and nats were insane. I still managed to enjoy the beach though. And for once I tanned and didn't burn!:-)

I took multiple walks on the beach and had some deep thoughts with Jessica moments. I tell you that I worry with each passing day that I am never going to get married. I want to..don't get me wrong..but I worry that I am not going to meet someone..or maybe I am not meant to. I totally think that I will make a good mother..but now I don't know about the wife part. I guess for the right person I will be...I hope I will. I did alot of thinking of what I am looking for now..and how that differs as each year passes. I won't go into..as I am tired..however I will give my new list soon (as I am certain you will all be waiting anxiously:-). Anyways, good trip..relaxing trip. Oak Island is very nice and a place I would definitely return.

I am FINALLY on vacation for the week. Sarah and I ventured down to Oak Island, NC. We are staying on the very end of the island at the oceanfront house. The weather has been beautiful so far. It has been good except for these biting flies. They have been attacking us. I am like what's up with that? I haven't ever seen flies that bite. Twice I had to come in the house to get away from the bloodsuckers! Anyways..I am getting a slight internet signal from somewhere, so I thought I would take advantage of it and catch up on my blogging.

How have I been? I have been stressed..really stressed. Too much to do and not enough time. My number one goal for the trip..besides relaxing and getting a tan..is to get some pictures revised. It would be a relief to get more of them done. Other than that my life is the same ole same ole. I am trying to do Jenny Craig still. It is hard..and I am hungry all the time. I have lost a totally of 5 lbs..but it seems like it should be much more.

I am doubting myself alot these days it seems. Doubting the photography gig and realizing how much more I need to learn. And just doubting myself in general. Oh well..I think this vacation is definitely needed, don't you? Give me a few days..I am sure that I will have many deep thoughts to share with you!:-)

going on vacation for 7 days..promise to post while I am relaxing!

Just in case you needed a good laugh. Strange how I make the same face in both pictures..suppose this is my signature funny face. Hmm..