I am awake at 4am because I was scheduled the 5pm-3am shift tonight. I struggled through most of the evening, but here I am still awake and starving. I ventured to the new store around the corner. As we all know I am a fan of Wal-Mart. I am often in a dilemma though... I put off going to the grocery store because going to super Wal-Mart to get groceries can be quite the daunting task..and time consuming and then the regular Wal-Mart doesn't have everything I need. Well, now Wal-Mart has these grocery stores..and there is one like 2 seconds from me. I tried the store out tonight (yes it is open 24/7) and I think it will be my new grocery of choice. The only problems is that it doesn't have my new favorite food item...these pizzas from stouffers..it is the margherita one..I love it and not horrible on calories... but I can only find one store that carries them..and this store didn't. Oh well...can't have it all!

At last I break my no blog streak. Why the absence? Well, I know that it seems that I tend to blog when I am down, so one may assume that everything has been peachy and everything has been so wonderful that I haven't had the need to blog. Um, no. Things haven't been horrible but I have been dealing with some of my personal battles over the last weeks and fighting a slight depression at times.

Overwhelmed. I guess I am getting a bit overwhelmed with everything I need to get done. I have recently done two weddings..some other events...trying to plan a trip to Ireland..and then there is this paper at school. You are no longer in school you may say. Yes this is true..but I have an incomplete that if I don't get the paper in soon..it will be a F. My hard earned GPA blown to bits over a class I didn't even need to take. Work has not stopped it seems. I need a vacation like tomorrow..it doesn't feel like I can make it till April. It will not let up and every day I wake up and have to battle myself to not call in.

27. I am now 27..doesn't that sound so much older than 26? I have been a bit emotional since my birthday I have realized. I mean really I am tearing up to "Something's Gotta Give" by Leann Rimes. I had a small breakdown on my birthday. Really I don't know what the big deal is. I should be proud of what I have accomplished in my life and other things will fall into place eventually..right? I had a nice time out to dinner with friends..but didn't quite make it out with the girls. I didn't make it out because I got upset over what to wear. Now guys out there reading this may thing I am crazy, but a few of you girls I am sure will understand. Nothing looked right and I am so sick with how I look..I got upset..and then couldn't go out.

Hence...1300 calories is the new goal for each day. I am trying hard to watch calories and increase the working out. I had a really good workout tonight which made me feel better.

I haven't completely abandoned blogging..I assure you. At first I was allowing my emotions to settle before writing..then I was being a bit oppositional by not writing..then I just didn't have the time. I promise a blog and update in the next few days.

Check out pics from the wedding I took pics at last weekend.