Long time..no update..lots to talk about..I will start.

Memphis: A few weekends ago I went to Memphis with some ladies from work. We had a great time. I was adventurous and tried some new foods. The first day actually it felt like I we did was eat! I think we ended up with 4 meals that day. I tried the Elvis special - peanut butter and banana friend sandwich. We had it at this old cafe call the Arcade where supposedly Elvis used to eat himself. The sandwich was ok..I think I would like it better not fried. And then later that night I tried the Memphis BBQ that everyone goes on and on about. It was good..but you know I am not that big on BBQ in general..and to be honest I was a bit grossed out by the fact that baked beans had shredded pork in them as well. We did the Memphis staples: visited the Civil Rights Museum (where Martin Luther King Jr was assassinated), visited Graceland, visited Sun Studio, and watched the ducks walk the red carpet at the Peabody. I think I enjoyed the studio better than Graceland! My favorite part of the trip was hanging out around Beale Street at night listening to live blues music. It was really cool to be sitting in a small bar listening to live blues. Memphis also had this cute trolley that ran down the center of town and around. Now for the freaky part of Memphis. When we arrived on Friday around noon..in the middle of town there was hardly any traffic. We walked to the Civil Rights Museum and in that area we were like the only people on the street. We went out to eat...and we were the only people there. It was so strange. On the last night I did a search and found what I shared in the last post...Memphis had been named the number 1 city for violent crimes in the US like 2 weeks before! Yeah..probably good we didn't know that. The groups of teenagers are dressed a like (i.e. probably gangs) and the rampant homelessness all were put into context then. Oh...well..it is a nice city to visit otherwise..but with a gun evidently.

I have been staying busy with photography stuff. So busy that I feel like I don't have a life. Well, there is no feeling to it...I really don't! I am almost caught up so that I won't be late on anymore pictures..which will take a huge weight off of me..but I still feel like in order to maintain on my free time has to go to this right now. Which is why I am hugely debating what am I going to do with my career next year. I can not get in this boat next year..my sanity can not handle it. I am so scared of the thought of having a business on my own..and being responsible for supporting myself. And I am so sick of myself at the moment. All I look forward to each day when I wake up for work is when I get home to take a nap. I am withdrawing from others (whether out of necessity or otherwise) and I am sad. And I am the biggest loser ever because I still have feelings for someone unable to reciprocate them that lives in another country (I don't know why I make it so cryptic when all my readers probably know who I am referencing). Everything is starting to catch up with me. I had to quit Jenny Craig because I couldn't afford it.
No worries though....I haven't went back to my old eating habits..and have lost around 7 lbs total. I am going to start working out again this week. I am hoping that will jump start my metabolism. We will see. So I realize this was long..and actually boring...my apologies. My life these days long and boring.:-)