So periodically I will check how people find my blog. Well, someone searched for "dating girls in their twenties" and my blog came up. Poor guy. I guess he won't want to date any girls in their twenties after reading my blog.

I had the day off today...and I got a few things accomplished but not as many as I need. I genuinely feel horrible for the delays I am taking in getting pictures back to people..but there are not enough hours in the days for me to get caught up. What is taking most of the delays is a speck of dirt that has been on my camera and so I have to go in and manually remove that speck from each picture..mind you I take 300 pics average at a family session..and 1000 at a wedding. That is a lot of time and it gets tedious. Oh well.

Jenny Craig update. I have yet to complete a day where I have followed the Jenny Craig completely. However I do feel like I am doing better. This ends day 3 no real coke and I have been eating healthier..I think. Good grief..I just want the weight to go off. What do you think it is that makes some people have to struggle with their weight more? Is it genetics..is it just learned poor eating habits? I mean really I can remember looking in the mirror when I was 9 and thinking I was fat and needed to lose weight. This has been a life long battle for me. I think it is especially hard for me right now because food serves as my comfort. Food gives immediate satisfaction (with bad long term effects). Taking it away right now is hard because is like the foundation of my deck of cards..you take it away and everything comes crumbling down. I don't know if everyone truly understands that this is very difficult for me. But what is more difficult is looking in the mirror..so a change has to happen.

Men. What to say that Kelly Clarkson hasn't already said? Haha. Just kidding. No, my new thing I have decided is that I am the girl you date right before you get married. So...women out there..if you know a man that you want to commit to you..trust me..have him date me for a bit and he will be running into your arms with a ring in his hands. You think I exaggerate but I don't: ok recently there are two: mr. conservative and name rhymes with socks. A guy I dated a few years ago proposed to a girl after only know her a month..after dating me. And a long time ex came up to visit me for a kinda date and next I heard he was married. Really..everything looks better after me evidently. On a recent note: I went on that first date..and 1 1/2 week later cameraguy was in a relationship..not with me obviously. Now not marriage but definitely on the how to run a guy off in 10 days track for sure. What is so ironic and stinky about this whole thing is the one thing I long for is a relationship..companionship..and it is the one thing that every guy wants with someone else. Really, don't you think my life would make a hilarious sitcom? Here's the pitch: Wedding photographer captures the love of couples every week..but seems to have no luck in her own love life. She sends men running to commitment..with other people. We could even do an episode where I shoot pictures at an ex's wedding. (Even though one of my rules in no pictures of anyone I have dated in any shape or form at any time). Sigh..I think it would be a funny show..but hello it's my life.