What's new in the life of Jessica? A little bit of the same and some new I suppose. Let's start with work. I have been presented with a decision that I have to make tomorrow. I have been longing for more regular hours..and now my opportunity has arrived..with big ole strings attached. I can work 10a-8p regularly, however I must step down from being supervisor. Stepping down from supervisor, means taking a pay cut. If I stay on nights..it is going to get worse and I will be working more 5p-3a shifts. Sigh. I feel like I am choosing for money or sanity? I don't know which way I am leaning right now. I am going to talk with human resources and see how much of a pay cut it would be.

I got to hang out with the girls this weekend. Ondi was is in town to celebrate her birthday. I forgot how much I laugh with the girls. Sometimes I miss those days of being in college when they were right across the hall. We really should all get together more.

Men. Good grief what to put here. I made an interesting phone call last weekend. At work I assessed an Irish guy..and you know where this is leading. When I got off from work, it was morning in Ireland, so i placed a call to James in Ireland. It was wonderful to hear his voice and we talked about 2o minutes. How can I miss someone still that it has been so long since I have seen? Good news is that I did not break down into boo hooing post phone call. I think it would be interesting to live in closer vicinity (closer than 3,000 miles) to see what type of relationship we would have. I know that we would at least be good friends. I say this knowing that he only has feelings of friendship on his end. And it's not like I am sitting here wishing and hoping for something to happen there (only swift moments at times)..I guess I just have alot of "what could have been" emotions there. One comment that always sticks in my mind is Lisa commenting how she had never seen someone look at me the way he did...after our visit there. Can't help but make you wonder if you'll ever find someone else that does really look at you like that. I guess that is why I sometimes tear up and wonder the "what ifs" on that situation. Megan Ryan movie with a bad ending..that is that chapter of my life.

On the homefront, I am still nursing some broken feelings about my second attempt at offering to move somewhere to be with someone..i.e. mr. conservative..now often know as west virigina boy. My full moon theory still remains strong in its "trial stage" as this month three of tracking the full moon has brought the men around. I heard from 2 men this week...one of which it had been a month prior since I had heard even a peep. I am realizing how I should not be wasting my time on situations that are not going anywhere. I tend to get trapped into this rut..and I am almost getting sucked into again. An intersting tidbit: I am beginning to think that the doctor is saying his phone is having difficulty as an excuse not to talk to me. More to add to my list: He might not be that into you if he has "phone problems" every time he doesn't call you back. He might not be that interested in you if after using your computer he leaves up an arranged marriage dating website. (No joke..) At first I believed it, but a girl can't help but wonder can she? What I don't understand is why they even waste their time. (And on the flip side why I keep indulging these situations).

Stalker. I feel this is appropriate name for someone who blocks their phone number and calls me daily on average of 2-8 times. I still have this going on. I mean it just doesnt' make sense as to who would be doing it. To be honest, I just want to know who the heck is doing it and why.

My throat is feeling a bit sore. Man, I hope I am not getting anything. Although who would be suprised? It has turned into the Artic over night it seems. Oh the joys of taking Kaden out to the bathroom when it is cold...