I will admit it..working nights puts me in a sour mood. All I do is work and sleep when I work this shift..and the hours I am awake and not at work..i.e 4am...well not much opportunity for social interaction there. It is just a bit of a downer I guess working this shift.

I went home for a few days for Christmas. It felt a bit rushed since I did have to work Christmas Eve day and then was back the day after Christmas. I am just glad that I did get to make it home though. I was feeling a bit down this year at Christmas. It is the first time that I felt a little down over the holidays though. Something about thinking about turning 27 made me feel just a bit like a loser or something. I feel like I should be at a different place in my life. I feel like I should have a family of my own, etc. I guess. I worry that I am going to be 35...along.. going home..just myself crashing at my mother's house. You know? I am being silly I know. I worry that I am a disappointment to my family too. You know I selected this field to work in that is not the best paying or really even recognized. I feel like people don't even really understand what exactly it is that I do. For the love, I will stop with the whoa is me crap. I guess it just feels like if I am single..then I should be more successful in my career I suppose. Even if that isn't what i neccessarily want per se.

Yeah..so I think I am more emotional maybe because a change in my hormone levels. This may be more info than you would like..if you are a guy reading this...so if so..just skip along to the next paragraph. I went off birth control for about a month..basically because switching mds...prescriptions running out, etc. Well, the re-introduction of these hormones has now made me more emotional(case and example my blog and my feelings over the holidays)..as well as my face looking like I am 13 again. Another example: I watched the movie Click and cried like a baby at the end and even worse after it was over. Really..I haven't cried after a movie was finished in quite awhile. Perhaps the worst movie I ever saw for that was Titanic..I cried all the way home and even the next day.

One more day of work and then a break.