The true irony of depression..or feeling down is that you are much better off around other people..emotional, etc..however the core of depression is being withdrawn from others. I would not diagnose myself with major depressive d/o..but i am dealing with some situational depression right now..that is for sure. The good before the bad though...Natalie got married yesterday. It was a lovely ceremony and everything went smoothly. As all of my friends have, Natalie made a beautiful bride as well.

Now, how to a transition back into depression? Haha. Ok. My last blog was a bit vague, so here's the breakdown. I am feeling down, lonely, and frustrated for the following situations in my life.

1. Work..I am feeling a lot of pressure at work due to various factors. That is the extent to which I will go into it via the web.

2. Heartbreak. I am feeling much unneccessary heartbreak. I think the only way to describe it is heartbreak..even if nevertheless heartbreak that shouldn't be occurring. What do I mean by "shouldn't be" occurring? Well, I mean that I think this was resolved and I despise wasting thoughts, tears, and sadness when it is completely unreciprocated. (and just an update: every other man in my life is MIA as well...shocking..really..but it's probably best for them to be honest)

3. Appearance. I feel like the freakin' marshmellow girl right now..or like that girl that blows up to be a blueberry on Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory. Lovely feeling I tell you. Disgusted with how I look and hating every picture of myself does not even begin to be the tip of the iceberg.

4. Stalker. I think I have a stalker or at least someone who likes to block their number, call quite regularly and just sit on the other line. That makes a girl feel real safe I tell you. After four weeks, I am fairly certain it is not a series of coincidential calls that appear to be the same person but isn't. Not adding well to everything.

5. Some member of my family are crazy. They truly are..again won't go into details, but trust me on this one.

That is me. Not feeling so up to par right now. It will pass..I know..but I wish it would much quicker. And..to top it all off..my younger brother is dealing with the first real heartbreak of his life. You know, as a counselor..I am all like..embrace the emotions..talk about the emotions..but sometimes I think the world would be a better place without heartbreak.