Another perspective of the craziness in my head known as Effexor withdrawl. So the "brain disco" could perhaps be better described as..when you move your head..or even eyes sometimes...it is like your brain is a tv trying to come into focus. So imagine everytime you move seeing a blurry vision, with some messed up sound..then after a disco dance...a clear picture and clear hearing. Does that create a better picture of the "brain shivers"? Really hate yourself?....then go on this medication just to experience the withdrawl. Really..it was much better today...but still not pleasant. I am actually sitting upright typing this though..so yippy yah. Work = mad circus crazy night! It was one of those nights where I got the most extreme drastic individuals with some major problems. As long as I have worked in that hospital...it is something to say that I had a bizarre night. However...I have noticed that male patients tend to respond better to me when I am a bit less empathic...perhaps somewhat grouchy with them at first..the later it gets the most irritable I get back at screaming patients...and somehow it often works to my advantage...hmm. Am I that scary when I am tired? (Those who know me...don't answer that..haha)

One more random thought on men. I get tired of men making fun of women for watching shows such as...So You Think You Can Dance...but we get no say so in games after games of football..baseball...golf..whatever their cup of tea. Just a thought..men only dish out what you can handle. Complain about my show..I may start complaining about game after game of whatever sport. (Not targeted at anyone in particular...some of you may be thinking...was it me??...just not so deep random thoughts of Jessica).