I had full intentions of getting in bed earlier tonight as I am working a long shift at the ridge tomorrow...but somehow that didn't happen. When I laid down, my body was tired, but my mind would not stop...so I eventually ended up back on the computer. How did people waste time before the internet??? I got sucked into myspace...for those of you not on myspace this may be hard to understand..but it can be so addictive. Tonight I found myself browsing through the Transy grads....thinking I would look at just a few. But..oh no..I went through all 53 pages I tell you. Wondering do I know that person, and are they doing something better than me with our 80,000 dollar education? Who do they keep in touch with now...is that the guy from my SOL group that I had a crush on? Addictive..this myspace..addictive. I am a myspace stalker..so look out. I suppose it is only fair though since I have a few blog stalkers, right?:-)

"I'm not a player..I just crush alot". Crushes...this is my middle name it appears. I have had crushes for as long as I can remember, however they never tend to develop into anything more..which is disappointing. The few, few times they have been reciprocated I am generally shocked. It is sad because I feel like some of the crushes could have developed if only I felt better about myself and was thinner..which are totally interconnected...silly I know. (Negative self...negative self talk). Another annoyance of mine is that one particular type of guy that seems to be attracted to me is one that I am never attracted to (of course this is not referring to any guys that I may currently like or have liked...this is a genre of men that I am not attracted to 9/10 times). I call them the "punk" group...they tend to be bigger men and just have this...punk attitude..I can pick them out of a crowd. It is crazy..and it happened again this week. Nothing more to share, but that it annoys me that the men who are attracted to me...I am often not attracted to them.

My new frivilous show of the summer is So You Think You Can Dance...I didn't believe dear Stacey when she told me, but she sure did get me hooked. And to update you on How To Get The Guy...one lesson learned this week was that the smell of oranges tends to attract men...well this is a good thing since I wear Satsuma from Body Shop..which is pretty much an orange smell. Y'all I have been wearing that for months...what's the deal?? I am not switching now though! Until later...