Sit down. I have some big news. I got up at 6:30 this morning. Yes, I am working day shift today, craziness. I would totally be cool with working on day shift if tha was the schedule to which my body was accustommed...however I am struggling...I asked the unit if I could join in on nap time on the child unit. Day shift again tomorrow..then back to nights on Tuesday. My body is going to go insane. Man, I wish I liked coffee!

To go or not go, what did I decide? Well, I ended up going on the date with the german dude. I had a good day, but not neccessarily a good date..does that make sense? I'll start with the guy. He was totally a nice guy..and we had a looooooooong date. I mean 1pm-10pm. We went Kincaid Lake and walked around and took pics..but lets be honest it was so hot and humid I thought I was going to die. Within 1 minute to meeting him my hair was up and 3 minutes outside all the makeup gone and my hair soaking wet with sweat. Yes, I was as attractive as it sounds. I must admit that the whole time we were walking around I was like please let's go get something to drink..when are we ever going to leave (in my head of course..but I have trouble concealing my emotions as many of you know). Not that I don't enjoy walking around and taking pics. But I prefer to walk on trails...and not at the high peak of day...on such a humid day..with no water...and having on bad shoes. (Yes, you who know me well know how much I don't like the humidity and extreme heat..unless I am near water to either ingest or a pool to jump in). Grumpy..sweaty Jessica. We then drove around the back roads and grabbed a bite to eat. We sat and talked forever at this little dairy bar type of place in Falmouth. So what's the problem? Well, I don't think there is that intial attraction thing..just not there..and I was trying. I would think maybe..but then he would laugh and I would think no, no. While we had no problem talking, I don't know how much we really have in common. Plus...he totally could outtalk me..what's with that? And he had braces. Now I am not dissing braces..it's just I didn't want to kiss guys with braces in 5th grade so I don't want to at 26 either. He didn't open doors and honestly wasn't sure if he was even going to pay for dinner. I guess in general his social skills were a bit lacking. I really don't think we have a lot of similar interests either. He seems like someone I might could become friends with...but not seeing any romance potential at all. What is with me? Most people go out on dates and see some potential...while I tend to get these complete no's. And no, it is not because I am so picky. Someone described their relationship "easy like sunday morning" and I think that is how it should be. Obviously it won't be completely easy at first, but it should be comfortable and easy..and that is something you can pick up from the start.

What was good about the day? It was good to get away from Lexington. It was sort of a free feeling...don't know what all that is about. It was just nice to be driving down some windy country roads. And it wasn't that far from Lexington at all...I have totally got to start doing random things like that, I think it is renewing for me. Also, it reminded me of what I would like for my future. I like Lexington, but I really think my heart might be living in a smaller town not too far from a larger city. It was just the comfortable feeling of being in a small town and seeing all those two-story white country houses on rolling hills like I have always said I wanted. I like the convience of a larger city..but you can have that by living close by too. I don't know..it just got me thinking that is all.