I realize that I have been a bit of slacker on the blogging. Not that there haven't been many things on my mind..I assure you..but I have just been mucho busy. Last weekend I went and took pictures at the first wedding of the summer. I thought it was in TN...but it was in NC..yeah...good thing I wasn't driving. Overall, I think it went well. Weddings are stressful for everyone involved. After the other 8 weddings I will be in, taking pictures at, or attending...I will probably decided that when/if I ever get hitched...I might end up eloping..haha. Yeah..age will probably factor in there too...at a certain point I will not even be able to have any bridesmaids because they will all be bridesmaidens. Oh, whoa is me...I know I will stop with the whining. I have had two days off and they have flown by..where in the world did they go? I could so use a whole week off.

Deep thoughts time. Well, in the forefront I am trying to convert romantic feelings into platonic friendship feelings. How's that going you ask? Haha. Yeah, you can change dynamics but the only thing that changes feelings is time. I have some current crushes that are providing some distraction. Crush #1 is a crush from the past. Wishing..and hoping (sing along)..that he would call. Oh well. Thinking I might send a not so discreet text message asking him if he would like to get together for dinner sometime. Crush #2 is out of league and not even feasible...yet a crush nonetheless...and a reason to motivate myself to go to work on the weekends. No joke, this dude really is a nice guy and will make a wonderful catch for someone one day..and I am enjoying just being his friend...and those blue eyes that come along with it. Nothing promising on the horizon of my love life..but really I do have enough to keep me busy, so I should just focus on that. I try and analyze too much..this I know. Still totally wanting a country guy though.

Men. So, I was looking through some of my childhood stuff today, which was so amusing I must say. I haven't laughed that hard in awhile..had to call Josh to get someone to share it with. Wow, Josh has known me through...wow....he really knows me and has managed to put up with me! What I discovered in my stroll down memory lane is that men were so much more expressive back in the day than now. The letters were covered with the "I love you" and the "you're so beautiful"..one guy even listed the things he loved about me. I guess hormones will make guys say anything..haha. No joke, what happened to the guys as they aged? I had forgot how good it feels to hear those things and know they are sincere (as opposed to some random dude trying to convince you to go home with him from the bar). I have been wondering if perhaps I am not "needy" enough for men. It's a strange deal because I pride myself on being independent..and how could a single gal at 26 not be? I "need" companionship for different reasons I guess. I "need" someone but I suppose it not as transparent...and something that has to be developed over time. As much as I talk about myself, I really do not like feeling vulnerable and showing that part of myself until I truly trust someone to see me in that light. I don't tend to be your damsel in distress. Maybe I should be. Yeah...off the bed now so I get up early to get my dress for Lisa's rehearsal dinner.