I should be asleep...as it is normal sleeping hours, but I worked my lovely 5-3 shift this weekend so my schedule is all messed up and I will no doubt just be exhausted and perhaps a bit grouchy tomorrow. I purchased some new underwear this weekend from Victoria Secret and it is the underwear that I bought that are just strange at first. I purchased these boy short underwear in this really soft material..but it takes awhile to get used to wearing them. If feels almost like I have little boxers on under my clothes or something. To be quite honest I suppose they would be more compariable to boxer/briefs. I keep on feeling the need to adjust them. Strangeness. I really do like the underwear that look like men's briefs..walmart hanes herway specials...they are totally comfortable, although not that attractive I suppose.

This weekend my lonely life included cleaning and working. I seem to continually find things to clean. A bit of control thing there..I am sure. (Why can't I control my diet..haha?) Got a little..ok alot..down in the dumps on Friday due to a number of factors, but I deleted the blog because I am sure that you are as tired of me as I am myself of hearing my "whoa is me...doomed to a life of solitutude" stuff. Now, do I still feel like that? Yes, but I am going to attempt to not bombard you with it and focus on other things. You know what is really frustrating though when it comes to matters of the heart. When you are just going along your merry little way...yes, i know my feelings and thoughts..and then boom something happens and you are like...for the love where did these emotions come from! How can your thoughts and feelings..that obviously both belong to you...disagree so much? I think we should just have a national follow your feelings day. (In which I am sure both really good and really bad things would happen). Sometimes I think your feelings can be more true telling than thoughts...hmm..what do you all think about that? Well, there is really nothing to do with these mysterious emotions that emerged. I will share them as I tend to do...but what good does that do really. I care for someone....they don't care for me in the same manner...same ole, same old story. The lesson of this story? Move on stupid Jessica...move on! And it is not that the person is intentionally preventing me from moving on...it's just that moving on would probably be a healthy solution for me. The plan this week..consider joining one the dating sites again (ugh...I know...I feel the same way) and check into the speed dating thing. Otherwise no other way I can think to throw myself back into the ringer. Now I will try to force myself to go to sleep so that I can have a bit of patience at work tomorrow.