Just enjoying some days off here. Had dinner with a friend and worked on my website for my pictures..it looks much better. If you look at the weddings link page with the music going, it is quite depressing. I suppose it will be all happy, happy for the engaged couples wanting pictures..hence the reason I put it on there.

My meeting at school went well yesterday. I felt like going back to school is more manageable. The question is what do I really want to do about it? Let's be honest...what do I want to do..haha...I want to get married and have children..that is what I want to do and take pictures on the side. (Yeah..maybe I should make that a headline on some dating websites..haha). I don't know..this whole professional woman thing is messed up. It's like you work so hard to get to a place and then it is like, so what? Is my title going to make me happy or keep me warm at night? No. Yet, I am sure that one day...my thinking my flip and I will want to focus more on my career. Right now I am just feeling so apathetic about the whole thing. But if I don't care..then (as one friend pointed out) why am I focussing on and obsessing over it so much? Not sure how to answer that contradiction. These are things we should be talking about in my counseling sessions..but we can't seem to get past childhood..we are still pre-high school after how long? Fun, fun.

O.k., so let's talk the pros of going back for today..and then I will talk cons tomorrow.

1. I will finish out my degree
2. I can be called Dr. Campbell:-)
3. I will have a wide range of career options within the field...much more than presently
4. Pay raise
5. Will not have wasted how many years of education?
6. I am so close..why not?
7. What else am I feasibly going to do?
8. Won't feel like a failure.
9. Will be able to support Kaden (joking..joking)

What do y'all think? I don't know.