Today was my day off...so much for that. Someone called in sick, so being supervisor on call, I had to work the shift today. I guess it will be good on my next paycheck. I attempted to take a brief nap tonight...which was unsuccessful thanks to being on call at work and my lovely little doggie companion. Oh well, the day is over now.

Still have a bit of cold. Perhaps it is being I am keeping my apartment so cool due having gas heat or taking Kaden out in my bare feet in the winter. Hmm...just a few ideas.

These days I am leaning more towards going back to school full-time next semester. I know that was always the plan...but at times I think about alternatives. I mean really, why shouldn't I go back to school? That is my thinking these days..it can hurt to finish up a degree that I am three fourths finished with. Although there are some other things..but will get into that debate some other time...don't have the energy really for that tonight.

So, a decision has been made that perhaps I shouldn't speak with the guy that I am now just friends with..for at least awhile. How long is awhile? Well, I am not quite sure right now. What I am certain of is the fact that I need to learn not to dial him on speed dial everytime I want to share something with someone...that is a bit over the limit with just a friend. Before I go to bed I will remove his number from my phone for now...so as to avoid completely impulsive dialing. He did come over tonight and work on my computer and help hang up the last of my curtains. (much, much appreciated..) We are now into side-hug land (Josh..you should appreciate this..you are all about the side hug). I guess what makes this situation difficult is I feel like we started getting to know one another with romantic intentions...so how do you back petal now? Anybody know that antidote for stopping butterflies in the stomach? I need some time with this I suppose. What I am beating myself up about these days is wearing my heart on my sleeve. I have so got to learn to guard my heart....I take every unsuccessful relationship to heart. It seems like the heart breaks easier with age...is that possible? I thought I was suppose to become more wiser about these things. I tend to want to give everything a fair shot...so I throw my heart and everything into it (i suppose that bit of hopeless romantic in me). What also makes this situation worse is I feel like it is so dang hard to meet a nice guy...so when you do meet one, you want to hang onto them...but then again that is not always our decision I suppose. It's all so confusing...do you jump head first..do you tip toe cautiously? I don't know. All I know is that I am trying to figure out how to deal with the current situation at hand.