Know the movie.."How to lose a guy in ten days"...I do believe that I could write a book called "How to lose a guy in 5 minutes". Really, I am just that good at it...

You know..I have never understood what possesses some people to just bust out singing randomly in public. For instance, today, I am in the gas station and this woman is just walking around singing...I mean, do you want me to tell you that you are good singer? - cause you're not. Singing around your friends, singing with your friends, singing in the shower, singing when you're alone, singing in the car, singing at bars....these are all different things, but walking around Wal-Mart singing at the top of your lungs...this I do not get.

Another thing I don't get..men...and I will just leave it at that.

Trying to write the second paper and for real it is like pulling my teeth. Good grief, why is development psychology soooooooooooo boring? I think the researchers in the area take a special added step to make the field as boring as possible. My topic...the child prodigy...not so boring..the research........help me!

I guess it is only fair that I post a dating update. Starting to like the one guy, but fear it's not reciprocal. Talking to other random guys. Wow...I don't know if I have the energy for it all. I am really not loving the dating process. Maybe it will be better when I can get some other things off my plate...such as this stinkin' paper. O.k. now I am going to get settled for bed....a perfect ending for a perfect day when all I have done is sleep anyways. I am taking one of my research books..so I should be out and let's say...5 minutes...

"I hate being alone, but I do believe that I may hate dating more" - comment from one of my anonymous single friends. So, I am back in the game when it comes to dating...I suppose. Had a couple of first dates and I am now moving onto second dates. From talking with friends I have
found that are several things that I am looking for..especially on the first date:

1. does he open doors for me?
2. did he comment on my appearance?
3. how did he tip the server?
4. did he offer to pay for the first time things?
5. is there an intial attraction?
6. can he hold up a conversation?
7. do we seem to be compatibile?
8. did he happen to put his hand on the small of my back?
bonus: make a comment about my appearance in general.

O.k. so the first guy I went out with got 7/8 and the second guy4/8. However, the first guy after a second date has definately moved up. I am really enjoying being around him and had a wonderful second date. I am of course now playing the will he call wait game...so we'll see.

My brother and sister got new vehicles yesterday..one each. Yes, can you believe they are driving! I am getting old...old...old I tell you.

Work is going ok...sporadic schedule is still messing me up..but hopefully it will get better when I start my consistent schedule this coming week. Still getting used to the whole supervisor thing...feel like I am walking on egg shells and under a microscope...but I guess that is the way it will be for a while, right? Other than that..my paper is almost complete. As soon as I finish here, the goal is to finish the last page. I thought writing in my blog might warm me up a bit.

First dates...when you are younger..the thought of first dates seems so exciting. For instance, my younger sister said the other day "I can't wait until I get to go out on my first date" to which I replied "I can't wait until I go out on my last date". You may have guessed, I did have a date this weekend...it is hard to tell how it went. I thought that it went ok, but then of course you have to decode the email that I get from the guy I went out with..."I have a pretty good time"....not great or just good...pretty indicates that it could be much better. Then he is very busy this week..ok this could be true, but then I am like..if you had really enjoyed my company then you would want to see me sooner..wouldn't you? Ah...who knows. I did enjoy the date and he was a nice gentleman who could carry on a conversation. First dates..ugh... Any male readers.......tell me what you think of the response.

Good news at work...I received the position of night supervisor...or as I like to pronounce it late at night and when I have had a few drinks "supa-visor". I guess some things are going right in my life....I am getting promotions and raises.

Should I stay or should I go? I am debating the whole moving apartment thing? Should I move to a place I adore...or move to a two bedroom here that is cheaper..with much more space? Reasons why I want to move: weekly funky unexplainable smell, a mouse/termites/something scratching in my wall day and night for a week, random people asking for money at my door, random people asking for rides as the stop light close to my house, uncovered balcony, and old school appliances. If I stayed....some problems would be eliminated but not all...and some of the places do have nicer appliances. Who knows...who knows..

Yes..the time is correct it is 5am. The hours I work are quite crazy these days. What is new in my life? I went to Minnepolis this past week and had a great time visiting my "best guy friend" Josh. It is a really pretty city...it manages to have many places where you feel like you are not even close to a large city..yet oops..there it is on the horizon. Of course I went to the Mall of America..then we did alot of random things...it was fun. Pictures will come soon when I get around to scanning them.

Work is work as usual. The good thing about my job is being able to leave it at work. Each night I clock out....get in my car, turn up the music and sing at the top of my lungs...while doing some dancing...all the way home. You think I am joking..but I am not. So, it is quite possible that someone I just assessed could be in car beside of me..thinking, and that who is made the decision about my mental well-being? However..let's be honest..not too many people on the road at 3 am. It is becoming my "ritual" to destressing as I drive home. I am applying for a new position there...will announce the details when I discover if I get the position.

Changed the title of my blog...I think it explains itself. I am finding that I am learning more and more about myself each day that I did not know..or fully realize before. It is interesting. I thought the title of my blog should somewhat reflect that...ok I am just beginning to BS.

I have ventured out and I am trying the whole online dating thing again. Yes, my profile is out there on cyberspace. Do I think I am going to meet my "mate" on there? Probably not...but who knows right? I never know what to put...if I put exactly what I wanted it would read: If you have any major mental concerns or still live at home with your parents...please move on. Must be honest, single, unattached, no children, not a punk, not a freak...no control issues...must have your own life..must have a job..must have some motivation and no weird fetishes. I will not be your therapist, your piggy bank, or your mat to walk on. Bonus points to those of you who are foreign (major points for the Irish), like to travel, and will be willing to look at the pictures I take at a decent pace, and who are not gay (your sexual preference is completely your choice..but I have a history of getting crushes on pre-coming out of the closet guys) Must be religious, but have fairly liberal polital views. Must be handy around the house...and since I can't cook that could be a plus too. No negotiations on this: must love my dog Kaden. My guy will like me for who I am and simply pass the shout wipes when I spill something on me. Last I am a counselor, I will be a psychologist one day..just deal with...I am not going to "psychoanalyze you". What do you think? Yeah...it would get no responses. It would be funny to see though..wouldn't it?

I do believe that I have rambled enough for tonight...so I will sign off now.