You Have A Type A- Personality

A- You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Yeah....I wish that were all only true. Perhaps more balance will arive one day..right now life is one blur.

Rambling thoughts........

As many of you know, I am addicted to watching the Bachelorette. I can say that I have watched nearly every episode in each season, except for the very first. Tonight, I fell asleep, but knew I had the VCR set to record. Well..it did record, with no sound..and yes I watched the episode on caption. Wow..it is even more corny with no sound.:-) I am updated though and frustrated with drama king Fabrice. Now I am a big fan of the foreign men and the presence they bring with them..but goodness gracious get over yourself boy!

Can I say how much I truly appreciate my close friends. It is so wonderful to have people to sit down and just talk with...people who understand me, cry with me, and laugh with me. I don't know what I would do without my friends in my life. In one of those heart-filled discussions on relationships with a good friend, I came to a new point in my thinking about relationships. I have realized that it is just not easy and will have to happen when it does because there is no way to force such a thing. Think about it..it is such a gift to find someone that you are compatible with mentally, emotionally, spirtually, physically, same sense of humor, goals/ambitions, and much more that I am sure that I am leaving out. Compatible does not imply the same (I think another me would drive me crazy), but it does mean that you understand one another. It is such a simple, yet complex thing. (sigh..)

O.k. so half way through my shift tonight at the Ridge I looked down to discover a hole in the crotch of my dress pants. Not a small hole mind you..it was huge. The discovery occured after I had made my rounds around to every unit in the hospital. No clue who saw it or who didn't. There was no way to cover it and no safety pins anywhere in the office. Luckily work was quiet the remaining 4 hours so I just hid alone in the office. I have such great luck at times. I worked two night shifts this weekend and I am exhausted but it still takes me awhile to wind down to go to sleep. No work tomorrow though and Monday is a holiday...sweet relief.:-) Although..let's be honest I have enough work to more than keep me busy. I am going to hibernate and work on papers.

I am pretty sure that I am not living alone..I am joined by a small, furry rodent. Three nights ago as I slept soundly I was awakened to a loud scratching. Thinking someone was trying to get in...I went and looked out (yes..stupid I know..like those women who run upstairs in the scary movies)..no one was there. I realized then that the noise must be coming from my closet. I slammed the door shut and the noise stopped. The next day I was laughed at when I called the maintence, but I don't care. I am not sure if they found anything or not, but that closet door is staying shut for now. I can't deal with it...rodents and reptiles make me freak out. I know I need to set traps..as everyone has told me..but there is no way that I am doing that alone. We'll see. For now I will stomp loudly and jump at random sounds in hopes that I will not come face to face with the little furry punk.

I just completed a really long blog...and I am frustrated because I lost it. So, this one may not be as in detail...less bull for you to read through if you will. School is back, stress is back. Seems like the break was not long enough. I have lighter course load but that is compensated by the fact that I am seeing individual clients, leading groups, supervising, etc. Between practicum and the Ridge..can you say mental fatigue??

Currently, I have been feeling sad and disappointed. Long, numerous stories. I am learning that I am human and I make mistakes..but I am incredibly hard on myself at times. I am trying to pull everything together and focus on work and school. i.e. no dating. I have went on a few dates and worked at meeting people..I have put my heart out with no return. Friends are welcomed, but unless "mr. right" falls out of the sky onto my path to work or school and screams stop..then i will probably not discover him. To be honest, this whole "mr. right" and "the one" thing is overrated (yes..hear it? the bitterness is returning). Yes, I am lonely..yes, I long for companionship..yes it seems like everyone I know has a significant other...but I suppose it's just not happening for me at this time and I can not force it that is for sure. For now, love life = no existent. Speaking of companionship, I think I will be waiting until the summer for a dog..perhaps I will have time for training then.

O.k. I am going to bed now. After assessing a suicidal patient at the ER and rewriting my blog twice..it is bed time.