Today ended as a day with me feeling kind of "blah". There are a lot of things that I could probably ramble about tonight..but let's be honest, I just don't have the energy. Why was it one of those days? It started off fine and fun with the girls looking at bridesmaid dresses for Lisa's wedding. We decided on this cute dress...nothing to do with the dresses..but I think trying on any formal dresses brings back lots of negativity with it (i.e. searching for prom dresses, etc) and those dang dress makers like to make the dresses so that you have to get a size or two bigger..and let's be honest I am just not built for most formal dresses. Like I said the dress is very elegant and pretty...but I want to lose weight so that I look better in it (and so that my blood pressure doesn's sky rocket and I have a heart attack before the wedding). So, thinking about weight stuff. I have decided that I can no longer afford Jenny Craig. Back to the drawing board and trying to do it myself. Really, can it be that hard? I know I can do this....I mean essentially Jenny Craig had me on a 1200 calorie diet...I can do that without their food. I am going to try doing that. Step one is FORCING myself to work out tomorrow at some point. Goal: lose 20 pounds by May..we shall see.

Reason number two for blahness...I am fairly certain after speaking with one of my classmates that I probably failed a section of the remediated prelim. I will find out for sure tomorrow, but I am betting that I did. Which just adds to the..I am so sick of this field and so sick of school stuff.

I did however treat myself to a bath upon making it home. Have I mentioned how much I like my new tub? May I also say that I have the softest skin in the world right now. ..and I smell terrific too. I love the spa wisdom body shop stuff....it is so wonderful....first do the scrub...then shave the legs...then end with the body balm...so wonderful. I think it is putting me to sleep as I type.