What is frustrating about the messed up hours is the fact that even though I have the same time that I would on a normal work schedule, I tend to waste more time not doing anything on my days off. It doesn't feel as if I got anything accomplished today..oh wait, a few loads of laundry and massive amounts of sleeping. Oh well..new day tomorrow and must be productive. The agenda? Jenny Craig meeting (sigh..not been good this week..but I must go in..show my face and get the guilt rolling), study group (sigh..again, increase my anxiety level on the fact that I have not been studying more) and clean my house (sigh...just because I don't want to do it).

I have been having long telephone conversations with the friend of Laura. I suppose I should come up with a more creative code name for him, but haven't decided what that should be yet. He has a rather common name..one of my friends jokingly said it sounded made-up. Have my friends started setting me up with pretend people now? Well, this could have been the case until I received an actual phone call. If Laura is putting someone up to it..then the person must have lots of free time..or perhaps they are getting paid by the hour..hence the reason for the long conversations. LOL. It is fun to have long telephone conversations because it is something that I don't do much of anymore. It seems that the internet has taken the place of some of that. It is fun though...and it is fun getting to know someone. It makes me feel like I am middle school or grade school again. Remember that? I would have total telephone marathons...we are talking 8-12 hour shifts..and then the excitement of 3-way calling. Maybe this was just a thing that I did...so if you think it sounds odd remember that I lived in the middle of nowhere...i.e. 45 minutes from the nearest town and spent most of my time cut off from others at the "head of hollar"..hence telephone conversations = contact with the real world.:-) Small tangent...anyways, I realized that I am nervous about meeting him on Friday, so I have decided that maybe we should just stick to phone conversations. If things progress, we could just have a relationship over the phone..or just become friends over the phone. Why destroy a good thing going? Haha, of course I am joking. Why am I nervous? It has nothing really to do with expectations of anything like that, more just a learned behavior/fear. I have had many negative experiences with meeting the opposite sex here lately (i.e. chip, 2005, match.com). Yes, I am going to start referencing bad dates by the year and website..haha...I think it's funny, although not quite APA format. Yes, I am nervous and I think many of us experience the same feelings, I just tend to be a little vocal about all these thoughts.

I realize that I may be sounds a bit neurotic, so I am going to go to bed now. I hope that my random thinking at least made some of you laugh today (and didn't run some of you off).