I think I may have completed the busiest weekend I have ever worked in the assessment office at the Ridge. Now, there may have been busier actual days, but not the weekend in its entirety. As you can imagine, I am exhausted. More than anything I am feeling mentally drained right now. My job can be contradictory at times. I mean part of what has led me to working in mental health is a compassion and concern for others. (Although do not even think about putting that in a personal statement when applying to programs). I guess I sometimes feel like some of that gets lost in the systematic tasks I complete...especially on out of control nights like tonight. I am totally focused on getting this patient in, calming this person down, returning that call...that part of it gets lost I suppose. I know, I hope that I am helping people, but tonight I am so drained that I have to reassure myself that. I suppose some of this questioning comes from the remainder of the hospital often treating the assessment office as the center of evil or something. It seems that I have gotten yelled at a lot this weekend..not by patients believe it or not..but other employees..mostly nurses in the hospital. What is frustrating is that I am working my butt off..by myself up front and doing a fairly damn good job and all I get is literally yelled at over the same tedious things that truly I can not change short of having multiple clones of myself..or of course better staffing. I am not meaning to complain more about work, but more trying to gather my thoughts on what I am or am no accomplishing at work. Am I making any sense or are my thoughts just not all connecting at this insane hour?

So, I had a first and second date this weekend. Had lunch with the nice guy that I had mentioned previously. I have been enjoying myself. One thing I was discussing with a friend is something I have discovered in just hanging out with this guy a couple of times. I have been majorly settling and making excuses for guys who were flat out not making the effort that they should have and hanging out with guys that really I was not that interested in just for the sake of hoping something would evolve..that wasn't even there at all. I guess what I am trying to say that I suppose there are some nice guys out there who will actually make an effort to get to know me and seem genuine in their interactions. (and that can even be someone that I am interested in too...) Simple concepts..I know. Yet it has been awhile since I have felt the mutual effort and enjoying of one another's company. Now, I am hoping that I am not jinxing anything by discussing this, but all I am simply trying to say is that maybe there is hope for men yet..haha (regardless of where this current situation evolves or doesn't evolve). So, have you noticed my efforts to keep this discussion completely neutral because you never know who will be reading it? And you know what truly sucks about dating is being like, well I like them...do they like me?

Anyways, Kaden continues to eat strange objects. He ate all the beads and sequins off one of my shirts. Yes, fun times having a dog and getting reminded of what used to make your shirt cute each time he goes to the bathroom. O.k. I am going to sleep now.

Oh and last but note least..Lisa and David have set a date...May 13th. Dude, she is on the ball! Got a place and even a dress now..fun times.