I survived the prelim. Honestly it was not so bad which made a bit concerned at first. I talked to a few of my classmates and they agreed...so now I am not worried that I missed some huge concept or something. There is really not much need to study for it though..let's be honest. Two hours probably would have been adequate...it is more stuff that hopefully has been ingrained by this point in the program. Perhaps the test is simply the professors way of tricking us into studying counsleing psychology stuff...hmmm. Of course I will keep you posted on the results...I have never been one to not share even bad news.

After talking with my younger sister tonight, it led to an interesting chain of thought and discussions. Basically it revolved around the fact that I have a successful career but have yet to start my own family. It is what may be called the gliche in the feminist movement. Women are expected to have the perfect career while also a full family life. Well, how are both possible..if you want to be fully successful at both? So of course it makes me consider how my life would have been different if at some point before now I had gotten married. It makes me feel like a failure is some way. I feel like it is often presented that it is a negative thing that I am 25 and still unattached. Yes, this is how I often feel, but you know there are benefits. I have a more clear sense of who I am, which is necessary in any relationship. There needs to be clear separate identity before becoming a "we". I will be a wiser mother and wife, and be able to provide more financial stability for my future children. I think it just could be a benefit in the long run because I will be more mature and have had time to do many things that "I" wanted to do. I won't have any major..what if I had done that things that sometimes influence relationships or perhaps "midlife crisis" type of things. (Not to say that I won't..but just go along with me here). Basically I am trying to convince myself that the world is not ending because I will be starting that part of my life later than what was on the timeline I had as a little girl. Just thinking outloud here. Anyways, I should stop rambling because I will probably end up going around in circles on the topic. Yes, I am single and 25...it is what it is and I can not change that. I did not actively say..hey I am putting this part of my life off, but that is what happened. Is it not possible that God's plan for me did not involve marriage and children before age 25? Yeah...quarter life crisis..just as the blog title indicates.