I am a little more awake tonight after work...Although no indication of what work was like. It was mad chaos there tonight. Not so much in my office, but throughout the hospital. Update on my life: I got the papers completed..yes, I do have some motivation still remaining...Evidently. Along with the girls, we threw a going away party for Ondi. It was a success I do believe...good turn out, good food, and for the most part good drinks thanks to pretend bartender, i.e. me. A few people were cursing me as they hugged the porcelain shrine throughout the night, but I just made the drinks...didn't necessarily drink them..:-)

Dating...sigh. I still continue to dislike the dating process. Let's see the update. Since posting on matters of the heart, I have met three new guys in person...one at the party..yeah..who was beginning to date someone else..we'll call him party boy. Next there is shall we say Tolly-Ho boy since I met him there...perhaps I should just call him my client though. Yeah, there is no romantic attraction there, but he did proceed to tell me about his life and failed relationships for 6 hours. We all know what a talker I am and I barely got a word in edgewise. There is the "lawyer guy" that I have been talking to for what seems like forever. I enjoyed meeting him, but he has proceeded to blow me off since the meeting. Then of course there is the guy that I enjoy being around...we were up to 4 dates, but I am unsure if it will continue...not on my end, but his. We are at a bit of a turning point..shall we say. Frustration! I do like him and feel like we are quite compatible..but I do not know what is going on in his head, does he like spending time with me...is he looking for a relationship? I just don't know..and I get so frustrated with waiting to know these answers! I am beginning to think that I have a dating disability. Definition: men like to hang out with, like to be my friend, perhaps go on multiple dates, but I am not the person they want to be in a relationship with. I have come to the conclusion that any man will want to settle down with a girl if he truly wants to be with her. What I don't understand is what is wrong with me? I would be the bomb girlfriend and future wife. I am compassionate, outgoing, a great hostess, social butterfly, great listener, love children, have a stable life of my own, can carry on a decent conversation...and am willing to learn to cook.:-) Why is it that my friends seem to think that some guy is going to see how "great" I am? It is not happening..what is occurring is the ole "sunglass theory". I guess I am just going to be everyone's friend FOREVER. O.k. this conversation is going down hill fast, so I am going to jump overboard for now.