Subject: Single Awareness Day, Sunglasses theory, and what-ifs

Yes..Happy Valentine's Day or more fitting single awareness day or yucky poo poo day. Really it was not so bad today, but it is another overrated holiday. I did some baking for some friends, hung out with the girls, etc. It is much better when it is during the week because there is less pressure to do something for it. You know..in high school I didn't do so bad on Valentine's Day....got flowers three of the four. Gotta love high school..go up front during all the breaks to see if you have anything...oh the pressure.:-) They would set up extra tables up front...and I had to be careful because there were two other girls with the same name of course. You know, as a girl I think one of the things that you remember is the first person to send you flowers. PJ Sheffel was actual the first guy to send me flowers in 5th grade. They sat on my desk all day..flowers from a mysterious guy at Jackson City. Oh, that crush sure did last for a long time.

Sunglasses theory. Sorry to bore some of you, but a recent occurrence has made this theory reemerge in my mind. The theory is essentially this: men tend to only view me as a friend/sisterly type. They essentially have "sunglasses" on...they don't see that I could be dateable. That is completely ignored. The syndrome has been true for most of my life. I treasure my male friends..but for the love I am a female who could make a wonderful companion for some man one day. I am safe and they are oblivious with their "sunglasses". Frustration...frustration. Questions about the theory can be directed to me.:-)

What ifs...yeah..perhaps changing my ringtone to Little Texas's "What might have been"..was probably not a good idea on Valentine's Day. So yes...some what ifs crossed the mind. One simple decision like moving elsewhere and not pursuing graduate school could have changed entirely where I am in my life right now. What if..what if, right?