Subject: The beach, first dates, and burglary

Yes, a lot of has happened since I last wrote. I went to the beach for a few days with Stacey. We stayed with her family in Havelock, NC and spent considerable time at Atlantic Beach. Of course, I got burned. It has progressed from unbearable pain to excessive itching as it is pealing. (oh the things we go through for a tan!).

As I was writing this blog originally two days ago, I got a call from Bridger informing me that our house had been broken into. Evidently sometime during the days some jerks crow barred our back door and the guys next door. They took mostly electronic things from the guys and they took nearly all of Lisa's good jewelry. It's horrible and it just makes us all suspicious and feel unsafe at our own home now. Needless to say...a little after the fact we are all getting renter's insurance pronto. Lisa may be able to at least get some money to replace the jewelry under her dad's policy..just waiting to see. The police came, fingerprinted, etc...but as Lisa said "it's no CSI". They didn't seem able to get much.

First date...yes I met up with this guy that I had met through match.com. I would not have met him so quickly if I had not known he was not a psycho killer from a mutual friend. It went ok..it is so awkward at first and who knows what to talk about. I don't know quite what to say about myself. I think it went ok.  He asked me out again for Friday..so I suppose I did not scare him off yet. Seems that I may have lost contact with the friend I made in Louisville. Don't really know what happened, I just haven't heard from him. That is really disappointing. Speaking of dating, women should check out this article on dating....it goes along with most of theory that seems to be going around by women in their 20's. Basically, men are not ready for relationships at the same time as we are and this results in a problem. I won't rant and rave all about this too much today..perhaps another time.

The long awaited picture....here is a picture of me as a cowgirl...

To see more pictures from the Country Stampede...here.

Subject: A breakthrough and reason number 565 why I am in not a medical related field!

By sharing my personal breakthrough, I am not trying to depress everyone, but I am trying to use the blog as somewhat of an outlet for me to express my feelings. While I know that all my friends would be more than glad to hear about my depressive insights..I do not want to depress them, so it is easier for me to share such things here. The insight is in regards to my self-esteem. Yes, I have low self-esteem this is not a new concept for me, but on Saturday night everything sort of came together for me. I had received a new email from the match.com thing (yes I still trying to do that!) and I couldn't bring myself to email them back. Mainly I didn't want to because I did not want them to see me...I am to the point of not liking my physical appearance that much. I do not like looking in the mirror and quite honestly I am disgusted with my appearance. If I do not like myself, how can I expect anyone else to? Perhaps the reason I am not in a relationship, etc is because I am so unhappy with myself in that specific domain of my life. Anyways, it all just sort of came together for me with that realization.

Ok...on a funnier note..I am such a baby when it comes to needles!!! I was helping out with a situation on the unit when I was at work at the Ridge yesterday. While I was involved with the situation I had to help contain a child as he was receiving two shots. After witnessing that I went back to the office and began feeling queasy. I broke out into cold sweats, dizziness, and nausea..Eventually having to lay down right in the middle of the office. Someone went and got me something to eat for my blood sugar and after 10 minutes I was fine. I mean for the love!! I had a similar incident in undergrad in Human Sexuality course when we watch the birthing video. I guess me and needles and bloods just do not mix. Plus...I know they can't find anything at the doctor...but my blood sugar sure drops a lot for there not to be a problem.

Going to the beach tomorrow!! I am heading out with Stacey to visit her family in North
Carolina. We plan to spend some quality time at the Atlantic Beach. She needed someone to go to the beach with her..it's a hard job...but someone has to do it.:-) It's off to the beach I go...

Went to the dentist today......yuck, yuck, yuck! It was bad today...I thought I was going to suffocate on that dental dam thing. Plus..it hurt quite a bit. My mouth is still sore...I am currently sitting with a pen in my mouth trying to deal with the aftermath of the dentist visit. Currently, it looks beautiful outside. I wish that I was laying out in the sun rather than in this office, but I assure you that looks can be deceptive. I know that the lovely forecast calls for rain at some point tonight..as for the next week.

So..gave my number to the guy that I have been emailing, and I have heard nothing. You know, I am just getting so frustrated at this love/romance thing. I mean really does it have to be this difficult to meet and get to know someone? I know that I have my flaws...I don't exactly look like a model and I can be loud at times, but am I really that horrible? Anyways, I am getting to the point where I am just about to give up on this whole meeting somone and love will have to hit me on the side of the head before I notice it. Oh, frustration!

Rain, rain go away!!! It is the stinkin' monsoon season of Kentucky. The rain just keeping coming relentlessly. If it was Ireland, I could deal with the weather, because I love that country..if it was the beach..I could sort of deal with it, but not in Kentucky every day for what seems like at least a month.

I went home this weekend for a few days..it was nice to go home for a bit. It is so pretty there this time of year. I have been dreaming so vividly here lately. While I was at home I had trouble figuring out whether or not I had actually seen something on the news or if I had just dreamed it. Evidently it was a dream because I couldn't find anything about it on the CNN website. A little scary..haha.:-)

Update on the guy I have been emailing. He was out of town when I was in Louisville and that was the reason he didn't respond to my email. And for all you doubtful individuals...I really do believe him..and generally I am a pretty good judge of character. He did ask if it is alright to call me sometime, so he has my number and I suppose the ball is in his court now. I am just playing the waiting game...we'll see. I suppose I should get into bed now and prepare for my morning of traffic school. Before I go..you must check out the latest appearance of our lovely governor Fletcher.

Important note concerning earlier post: I stumbled across that name being there..not naming roses after ex-boyfriends as one friend inquired. ( I will admit that it does take my heart quite while to recover, but I am not that sad and lonely yet to go and name random roses..haha) You will notice that the rose name is spelled differently..it was probably named for the singer by the same name. Just wanted a clarification on that..

I am sitting here at home having my sister update me on all the latest country music. For a good laugh check out the lyrics of Redneck Woman.

let's play a little game...go to this link and look for a familar name.....you will definitely know if it's you. hint: look under the flowers beginning with letter j.

Question: Why is it so hard to give up those favorite pair of pants? This is something I often deal with when I get jeans. I get a new pair that I love and I wear them over and over instead of wearing my other jeans too. I noticed today that I am doing this with my favorite black jeans. I have now sewn them up twice and they have a safety pin..yet this does not stop me from wearing them. You really would think that it would..especially since part of the rips have been in the crotch..but oh no..I throw them on each morning..forgetting about the spots till I look down at work. Ran into a random person from high school yesterday...Ralph Taulbee. I am walking down the aisle at Target and I hear "hey I went to high school with you". Random..

Wow...i had a cram packed weekend! The Country Stampede was fun and relaxing..with beautiful weather. I even purchased and wore a cowboy hat for the occasion (pictures to come later:-). We got to sit on stage for the Chris Cagle which was really neat. This random guy approached us and was like to you want to sit on stage..we were like are you kidding! At one point during the concert he turned around waved at Ondi and asked if she was looking at his butt. It was hilarious. I got waved at by the not so attractive drummer. My dinner of a hurricane and funnel cake did not set so well on my stomach on the car ride back on Friday night. Luckily I was feeling better by Saturday morning because I indeed had to be at work at the bright and early time of 7 am. I worked on Saturday, took a nap and then headed back to the concert. Martina McBride and Terri Clark were great..they both had wonderful voices. After the concert I headed to Louisville to spend the night with Natalie. With the lovely traffic, I beat Natalie to Louisville by an hour! I sat in my car with the seat reclined sleeping until she got there. It was great to get to catch up with Natalie..it felt like we hadn't talked in forever! Now the lovely week has began again. I am thinking I will go home for half of this week..I haven't been home in awhile. My grandfather..papaw Jones is in the hospital right now though..and they are transporting him to Lexington today. I am going to wait and see when they are going to do surgery on him. He was mowing the grass and somehow the riding lawnmower flipped and he got crushed underneath him. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers right now.

Things have been busy here...shocking I know.:-) Last week was another crazy week of working..like 45 hours at the Ridge alone. I have not signed up for anymore weeks like that..I assure you. I have been quite a bum in between all the working madness. When I work that much, all I want to do in my free time is sleep and watch t.v. and essentially that is what my last two weekends have consisted of. I enjoyed my Memorial Day very much...a day with nothing planned. I went over for dinner and drinks at Lynda and James's..it was fun..that was two nights in a row that I actually hung out and relaxed. I have completed my first project of the summer..I have completed my webpage. Really, it isn't anything fancy, but I am quite proud of it. You can check it out at this link. I guess since I didn't get to go to the beach at all last summer..I am trying to make up for it by going twice:-) I am going with Stacey to North Carolina at the end of June and then two weeks later I am going to Cancun with Lisa. Exciting times..maybe I will be able to get rid of this pale skin some. I have a busy, but fun weekend scheduled. I am going to Country Stampede on Friday...working..going to Louisville to visit Natalie (..and maybe the guy I have been talking to via email..not sure yet) and then back to work on Sunday.
Suppose I should motivate myself to actually do some work here today... Btw...I figured out how to add commments to the blog directly, so feel free to comment on anything.:-)