Where to start? Right now I feel as though I could rant and rave for hours. I know that I should place all this anger into something productive...like exercise..perhaps it would be helpful. I will start on a good note...I have a good evening with friends. I did at times feel like "Jessica downer" (like the skit on Saturday Night Live). Do you ever have those times when everything you start to say just ends up coming out depressing? It was definitely one of those evenings for me...thank goodness I have good friends that take it all in stride. That of course was not the good note...that is that I went and saw the new Bridget Jones's Diary. I really enjoyed it...still debating if I like it as much as the first, but definitely up there with my favorite movies. I think the reason I enjoy the movie so much is that I feel like I can relate with Bridget...I think it's the whole overweight, clumsy, opening your mouth when you shouldn't thing. I love happy endings to movies..and of course this was the case, but even the happy endings make me a little sad right now. Sometimes I feel so hopeless about meeting someone to romantically be with that cares for me as much as I do them. I wonder if there is a "Mark Darcy" out there for me who will like me just the way I am. I know I am by no means an old maid...but as I was talking to a friend about the other day...this is a hard age...and is a hard age in which to be searching for that companionship.

Speaking of men...let's talk about another thing I do not understand. What is it about men that they have this "replace" instinct? Either after they have a breakup..or in order to justify a breakup..they feel the need to find someone else to replace you. Most often women need time to heal wounds, but no..not men. And as these "wounds" are healing..when men do their lovely replacing games..it's like rubbing salt and then grinding it into the wound. Or at least let's say that is how I am currently feeling.

Some of you may know that I am moving this upcoming Tuesday. I will send an email out soon giving my new info. I will not be getting a land line, so my cell will be the primary way for people to get in touch with me. This has been a tough past few months for me and I think a change will do me a world of good. Hopefully I will find some space..and perhaps sanity. We'll see.