Want to know the worst part of anxiety? Not being able to sleep. I am trying to follow my own advice..and since I am unable to sleep tonight, I decided to get up and try to do something for a little while..then try it again. Typically, music can calm my "nerves". I can turn on a good song dance around alone in my room and forget about whatever is bothering me. I attempted that earlier and it worked temporarily..but as I went to lay down and was present with only my racing thoughts...I still could not sleep. My anxiety is through the roof for a number of reasons right now...but basically let's just say everything in my life sucks right now. I really truly wish I could run off to some strange place or crawl into a hole for awhile. I need a vacation from my life. (note: I am not suicidal...just overwhelmed and down). School has gotten to the "survival of the fittest" point. Luckily, I am not alone in this situation...many of my classmates seem to be in the same spot. It is no longer about catching up on all the massive reading..simply read what has to be done in order to pull together papers and presentations in this upcoming crunch time. I will definitely be happy to see the end of the semester to arrive and give me a breather. This has been the worst semester...not in by intensity of work per se, but more so of the amount of work and mental fatigue...and looking towards stinkin' dissertation stuff. Many of you know that I considered moving to Ireland a year or so ago...I must admit as I am sitting here not able to sleep tonight, I wonder what my life would be like now. Would I find stress even over there? I know that it probably would not live up to my idealistic standards..but would I be much happier? Who knows...I guess I should listen to the song lyrics...try not to think about what might have been... As many of you know my wondering about Ireland involves me wondering about a certain someone. Sigh... Everyone I voted for lost...how great is that. What else is there to say? My life stinks right now.